Birds

"I am no bird; and no net ensnares me." 

-Charolette Bronte (Jane Eyre)

I've always had a hard time making my own decisions. I looked to others to make decisions for me. I was a follower, but I tried to seem original- to be my own person and get some attention. 

I worried, too! I worried about every decision I made, assuming it was the wrong one. I went back and forth on all the possible outcomes of a decision, regretting my choice every time.

Why should I always look to others to help me make decisions?

I am no bird. I am independent and unique- perfectly capable of making a choice without the influence and guidance of others. 

People have asked me every day since I got accepted to Auburn if that's where I'm going. Well, I made a decision. The answer is YES. I was lenient to answer this question at first because none of my other friends seem to be choosing to go to Auburn. In fact, very few of them have actually received acceptance letters from the colleges they want to attend. Why was I different? Why was it so easy for me?

Why was I worried about that? I am completely individual and I will not be held down by what others think I should or should not do. 

I've finally made this realization, and it's going to be an important one (especially when I'm on my own- forced to make my own decisions).

So, this is it. I'm realizing things and growing up. I'm making decisions and not looking back.